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- reminiscentii -

if only emotions were as simple as abc.

 

stress! stress! stress! stress! stress! stress! stress! stress! stress! stress!

*thud thud thud*

yep. second week of school and i'm already banging my head on the wall. so much to do around here.

assignments already lining up for me. projects are coming up. re oral presentation is soon. there's syf for chinese orchestra in april. and on top of all that, there's o levels. my god, it's truly raffles institution. there's plenty of work to do and i can barely catch enough sleep. i even have to nap just to balance out the time. what's more, i still have to attend el2, of which i thought my name was already gone from the list of scholars attending it.

sometimes i'm glad that one or two teachers among hundreds can actually understand your situation and are doing something about it. most teachers however fail to comprehend that students (or in this case, scholars) are not godly. we need our sleep, we are not study freaks and we are certainly not the best people you've met. it might be just me trying too hard, but i believe that maintaining a balance between ccas and homework as well as other external projects is more important than what is shown in the yearly academic performance report.

like now, i'm currently trying to write a (very) lengthy letter to the el department to explain why i NEED TO be excluded from el2. scholars committee orientation project requires my full attention. there's still cca and homework as well as projects that i need to complete. and i have to pump more effort into scoring better for my higher chinese at the end of this year. this is truly a balancing act. oh and did i mention? re congress is brought forward. asfnqwoenqwubvqnvqiubr if anyone was wondering why i start swearing so much, now you know. - -

but on a happier note, it's my dad's birthday today! yay! XD he ate my portion of the cake on my behalf. *cough* i hope i'll be able to celebrate with him next year. hopefully jc classes start later. so that i can spend my time at home with my dad on his birthday. ah well. and i also found out mr mag's birthday is on the same day! (: and happy birthday to phei phei as well. haha. craziest cousin i have around in the house on chinese new year. :p

i guess i have to apologise to some people for not fulfilling my promises, some for being a constant target of my stress relief (pig and pigeon!), some for being cussed at for no reason at all. i'll try my best to improve myself; nobody's perfect! remind me when i start to shout and i'll be sure to stop. (:

signing off. can't stop missing my family. and her.

 
 

well well, first post of the year of the ox!

mmhmm. it's 2009 already. sigh. what have i been doing for the last year huh? it's like when i look back everything's empty. all that matters is my family and my friends. :o ah well! i guess life's like that. can't complain.

anyway! school started. couldn't go to school. had this crazy fever of about 39C (maximum) on new year's day. how inappropriate to start the freaking year. so i gulped down about 3.5L of 100 plus and got better the next day. (i'm insane, sue me. :p) then went to doctor's and found out it was flu. the fella just gave me cough medicine, sore throat and some lozenges. what the hell? hello? mana antibiotik? dah lupa kah?! - -

then accompanied my juniors around for a few days. they're very fun, seriously. lol. better than my seniors weih. (no offense! XD) then they ran off for obs. and they're currently still (barely) surviving in pulau ubin. i hope. while on monday i went to build sandcastles. what the hell, how would that be "orientation"?! - - how the heck does it orientate you? but our castle was damn nice anyway. we even had a basement, which couldn't be done by the other groups. go 4M. XD

then school started on tuesday. first was social studies, where we got to know mrs neoh. she sounds like quite a good teacher. yeah yeah, i know some people say she's a bit angst, but then again i have a knack of spotting quality teachers like dr chionh. (cough) and in cle ms tang came in and told us she'll be taking over the subject from mr law (darnit) and taking english from rosie smith. darn. i really wanted to see how she marked. i wanna see how i fare under her "death pen". it's like everything everyone says is so negative about her. ah well, i'm not getting that chance. :<

then was recess. had a huge meal though prices were raised reasonably imo. then after recess, bio was dr. jeffrey lee, who's supposedly head of science 1. i don't know, but he does remind me of nhan. (oops! XD) and maths was okay, priscilla lim as usual, but i feel ready to face the subject this year, unlike last year. i had tuition for calculus (differentiation and integration) as well as trigo and lo and behold, it's in the syllabus! hell yea. XD and assembly was switched at the last minute from a vegetarian talk to a communication talk. i felt so relieved. it was just one of those talks where you are advised to spend more time with your parents. like i'm not spending enough during the holidays? (i don't mind more, don't get me wrong) any closer and i can say i literally stick to them. XD but at least the speaker laced the talk with humor everywhere, so it was very nice.

today i realised i forgot a heck lot about redox. i'll have to read up on it over the weekend, as well as complete some work for chinese. sigh. this year i hope i don't procrastinate everything like what i did last year. hope. against hope. damn! XD

this year, i have a target. (no dreams please, i'm no martin luther king!) since chinese o levels are at the end of the year, judging by my current chinese standard, i'll be far off from good. so i'm aiming and trying my best to get an a1 for my chinese. it being the mother tongue, i believe i have responsibility in doing well in it. my family's more of english-educated though, so even though i had chinese education since standard 1 (10 years!) i'm not much different from a banana. eastern maybe? XD

and of course, been wondering about life a lot. especially my family. i have no idea why but compared to others, i can safely say that i am the most family-oriented person among millions. maybe it's the upbringing; my father always insisted on me sitting down and eat with the family instead of watch tv. and my family has been very great to me; in fact, it has made me call only one place home. it's not stationery, but it's definitely wherever my family is. my home can be the car, a hotel room, my uncle's place in kl, or just my house. wherever it is, i feel a strong affinity and i feel like hugging them and not let go. i guess this is what i'll say for oral defence, for my greatest weakness is my family. (:

in fact this new year was quite boring. last year was different, it was with relatives. but this year it's just with my friends. and there's this empty hollow that i can't manage to fill. it's probably my family, my special someone and things like that. hopefully next year i'll be able to finally celebrate new year with my family, and hopefully even celebrate my father's birthday, for i love him the most.

lots of pressure around. i believe there's a greenwave project, a scholars' committee project, re oral presentation, social studies documentary, chinese orchestra syf09 competition and so on and so forth, including the little bits (comparison, it's actually freaking huge) of homework, class test and assignments crumpled together. that's my life, physically. but mentally, i'm free. i just think of my family. that special someone. my future. it's so much to think about; sometimes i question myself whether i'm thinking too much, which led to more thinking and no answers. i guess i'll just sign off here with a question to you reading this: how close are you to your family? (:

- "it is sometimes silence that is loudest."