- reminiscentii -

I am so freaking bored in class that I decided to blog just for the sake of it. Better to blog and use my iPod touch rather than spending the whole period of Philo watching another movie I have done before countless times. :p

Anyway. School's been really unbearable for me these few days. Especially language subjects. I prefer to not learn the specifics really. Someone tell me what good it does me to learn what's a noun, a pronoun, a verb, and other weird things. As far as I know, everything simply comes to me like that. No memorizing of what comes after what. And I write my essays without first planning. Bad habit I know, but I prefer to do it that way and let my ideas flood me after each line I write.

Without noticing with all the business and all that, it has apparently come to my mind that I will be stuck in this completely boring city for another 5 weeks only! Yay. Yay to meeting my family again. Yay to meeting Eng Yee, Angelyn, Pui Mun, Cheng Yee and my old Sam Tet and Bercham friends again. Yay to what I define as "real food". Yay to my iMac. Yay to the freedom. Yay to so many other things that I cannot even finish listing. And for once, I actually feel like singing the Malaysian national anthem. (:

Speaking of patriotism and whatnot, BN has almost completely succeeded in the takeover of Perak. All thanks to the help from the judiciary, which is not even supposed to trespass and judge the laws and actions taken in the legislative branch. Apparently the completely brainwashed and threatened "Your Onners" have decided that the speaker's actions were unlawful even though no rule in the Perak constitution nor the country's constitution has been breached. So much so for fairness. Complete hypocrites.

That reminds me. Someone posed me a darn good question that day. What should I be in the future? Definitely not a lawyer nor a politician. F**k that thought. The last thing I want to be associated with is the immoral of the immorals. Maybe an anaesthetician? But then again I never really wanted to join the medical branch. Not because of the blood, but more of my blaming myself if anything goes wrong. And you can never be sure while dealing with the human body.

How about accountancy? I might just do that, but business management or actuarial science seems fun too. That might be one of the best things for me. I have completely no talent for making people understand what I'm trying to say at times, so skip teaching. Or maybe I'll follow my dreams of doing something with the computer. Never mind that I don't know what I want to pursue in the meantime. As long as it's related to computers, it'll be fun. XD

Ah. The complexity of life and the future. Such mystery draws me to it, yet the more I think of it the more it doesn't make any sense. But for now, at least my boredom is cured. No thanks to the long sessions of dialogue observation and the lullaby--- I mean movie.

Signing off.

Yeah yeah. Slow update. I'm sorry! D: Not like I want to do it right? D:

Scholars' Committee interviews were yesterday. It was a gruelling 3 hours of listening to people talking non-stop yesterday. And I had to come up with good questions too. Not that it's not fun. In fact, the tire factor was the only one bothering me. Was quite fun otherwise. Ms Doreen Lim was there beside me. Keep on telling me to stop intimidating the Sec 3s. I mean hello, when did I ever do that? It was just being a bit more serious. *cough* XD

Finished SYF for those who want to know. Silver silver silver. Ah damnit. And I thought we had a sure gold. Really. Our standard was better than normal except for the part where the sanxian went boom. But yeah, I guess having two songs' composers as judges ain't a good idea. But oh well. Everyone tried their best! No regrets. (: Hope no one's blaming themselves. No point. Just know that you've done your best and that's all you can do. The results are still just results. Doesn't really signify anything. No use scolding or cursing the judges either. :p

And I'm aware that my website's a bit screwed now. I have completely no time to manage it right now, and thus will not go around banging my head against the wall trying to figure out what the !@#$'s wrong with it. I believe it's due to Blogger's RSS codes having been changed. Stupid Blogger. D: And the background too. I completely understand what you're getting at. But please let me finish catching up to my studies first before I touch my website anymore. Deal? :D

I've been receiving loads of retarded emails showing me the photo of someone in superb need of monetary help. Like huge injuries, how rocks fall on top of them, how cars knock into them, how the family's crying like hell. Please wake up people, it ain't true. Well not exactly, it was true when it happened. But please understand this, I've seen one chainmail being circulated 3 years ago and the same one going in my inbox today, asking me to forward the mail so people can get cents. You get it, right? right? - -

Yes. After months of training and much lack of sleep, SYF Central Judging is finally here. There's been much shouting about these days, emotions running high.

Well I guess I've been so occupied with life that I have temporarily ignored this blog and even my studies for a bit. ): but if I really performed my best tomorrow, never mind the outcome of the judging, I would not have regretted all the hours and effort put into preparing for this day.

I guess I have gotten into trouble many times before for my failure of prioritizing. I personally will maintain my stand that whatever I do is right. God heck cares about you and your comments; I prioritize differently. And I get happiness out of the faults I decide to commit myself to, not faults out of the happiness I decide to commit myself to.

Then you might start asking me: how do I pripritize things? Mrs Patricia Nathan has seen much errors of my way of prioritizing. Yet I never changed a bit, and I don't ever plan to.

I always list down the consequences the decision I'm about to make brings. Then my next immediate question is: will I ever regret not doing whatever needs to be done? Then, am I willing to take the consequences whatever they may be?

Anyway. SYF indeed is less than 24 hours away. I shall rest after this and get my spirits up to face the challenge tomorrow. Even if we're destined not to win, we're not going down with a fight.

Well well. Finally there's a public holiday that will make the weekend longer! Bah. Can't believe how tired I am. But I guess I have to update my blog. For fun. XD

Went out to Cineleisure Orchard with My at around noon. Had Subway. I actually didn't have enough money! Damn. So I rushed to the nearest ATM and withdrew $50. OUCH. THAT'S SO MUCH MONEY GONE ;_; Then we watched Confessions of a Shopaholic. That movie's not too bad. I guess they killed off the whole thing for a sequel when they said she went through rehabilitation. That's the only part I didn't like. Bah.

Anyway. I guess having lots of people as your juniors can be bad at times. 4 months have barely passed and already there's an inter-state fight. I guess while they're still throwing verbal nuclear bombs at each other and starting Cold War II, we can learn from their mistakes.

I'm not going to judge who's right or wrong, but you have to be considerate when they're the only ones that are with you in a foreign country. Right? And not everyone has the same attitude and viewpoint as you have. So giving in to others' request sometimes would solve the whole damn thing.

Of course, there's the whole thing about one misunderstanding the other for not being serious about whatever the hell they're doing, but you should have an idea of everything that you've seen before pointing fingers and starting a rift. That's as mindless as the new Perak MB saying some British law freaks can back his statement up. Completely reckless in my opinion.

Then there's also the self-control. Before you shout at people for their mistakes, control yourself and limit yourself to only one problem at a time, no matter how much you want to cuss at the opposition at how bad he smells, how much armpit hair he's got, how his **** is as small as a coin. Seriously. That's the most childish thing you can do, and if you can't control yourself, just keep your mouth shut to do damage control.

And the most important thing about a fight is to compromise. Very seldom can there be win-win solutions. And even then it's probably not what you'd want. So instead of blaming the other parties for what they've done, learn from the mistake and listen to the criticism of others. You might be thinking what you're doing is right; others might beg to differ. Just cause you're smarter than others doesn't mean you make better choices.

Now, if we can all do that, the world would be a much better place. XD

Yeah yeah. Annoying. Life ain't perfect I know, but I guess ranting won't do any harm. Of course, to everyone out there who wants to rant after seeing this post, you probably would want to exercise caution before shouting at people with all forms of insults you can think of. Scholarship boards, MNCs and whatnot are looking at your personal profiles and Googling your name to get information about you. Better not make a mistake, eh? XD

Anyway,I've learned not to argue with the English department. In fact, I've learned not to argue with any English teachers at all. What's the point of arguing for the sake of arguing? Everytime you have a valid reason to refute their claims, accusations, whatever they throw at you, you probably won't get it your way. Cause you're never right. And they're never wrong. According to them anyway. Even if you have the best evidence that you can find, your thinking is not as matured as they are. Now we, as students, should probably reflect on what we did and repent for our mistakes. I'm so tired of telling teachers what I think is right or wrong.

Just because I think differently from teachers, the immediate conclusion is my thinking is not as matured as theirs, and my experience even as a human being is nowhere near compared to theirs. It's automatically decided for me, then, that I have no right to argue for what I think is correct, no matter how well my argument is, no matter how well I can score in Philosophy (cause it's different from English. right. Why Knowledge Inquiry?), no matter how matured I can think. And don't go around telling people your thinking is matured or special too! It's all in the marking scheme if it's a test, and it's all agreeable with other teachers if it's not. Please proceed to quit school if you are not interested in this attitude of English teachers.

I'm sorry if I have made extreme cases of generalization. I must point out that I have met very kind teachers who teach English, including Pn. Tong and Mrs. Nathan. They have proven their side of the story and their logic instead of giving you a flat NO. I believe there are many more out there that does the same way. But understand that "silent gratitude isn't much use to anyone" (G.B. Stern), and neither are silent actions.

*whew* There. I really needed to get that off my chest. XD

Yes. Apparently it's school again. Boohoo. Not like I hate it or anything but I guess it's not really my kind of thing, especially when there's nothing that interests me. xD at least trigonometry is coming up. XD

Well anyway, today was really very uneventful. Nothing much to do. Just ate Subway yesterday. I seriously like their subs. Can't get enough of it xD but it's damn expensive weih. Can't they charge a bit less. Economic recession here. D:

Have been using Google Reader very often. Very convenient. Like I just saw that Eng Yee updated her blog without even going there. And read it too! Power of RSS. Yay. It's much like how I can link my blog straight to my website.

I stayed up quite late yesterday to finish reading Breaking Dawn. Interesting. Can't wait for Midnight Sun. Don't worry, I'm no fanboy. I don't really understand how guys and (especially) girls can go crazy over some guy on the movie screen. Completely unfathomable idea. I understand singers la, but an actor. Argh. ):

Too tired. Shall fall on the bed now. XD

I'm doing this very quick update to tell you that I am extremely lucky to be able to update this blog on my iPod touch again. You see, merely 3 hours ago, I lost my iPod.

It all started at dinner where Siva borrowed my iPod touch to play games. It passed from hand to hand with the passcode unlocked. Since there was very little battery left and I was rushing to run some errands before badminton, I left my iPod touch with them and went back.

Siva passed me my iPod touch while I was warming up and asked him to put near my wallet. Apparently he thought that the wallet on the ground was mine. Ouch. So the game continued for two whole hours. I was completely worn out and went back. I thought Siva took it back since the I was still playing while he left early.

After roll call I realized that my iPod touch was missing. To my utter dismay and horror, Siva replied my SMS to say that my iPod wasn't with him! Tried calling Wei Herr but he rejected my calls. Joel simply didn't pick up.

Was starting to get pissed off and emo-ed for a while beside the lift on Level 5. Kah Wah came and console me while I cooled down enough to whip out my phone and started calling many people, including the security guard on duty, Mr Seah, Mr Tan and Mr Chua. Meanwhile Siva was also helping me ask those who were there.

Finally got approval to search for this iPod after going through many parties concerned. Ironically reminded me of SS, the UN and the weakness of bureaucracy. Meanwhile Siva said someone put it on the floor again. Went out with Elizer since all 3 boarding masters were out. Went to the Albert Hong Hall under the accompaniment of a security guard and Elizer. And I found it on the floor!

I was so happy when I found it. Sighed with relief. SMSed everyone again to tell them sorry for the inconvenience that I've caused while thanking them. But being the usual me, I guess I was still quite grumpy at certain things.

Was quite angry at myself for losing the iPod touch in the first place. It was my fault and no one else's yet I went around blaming others for what they didn't do. But also, not mentioning any names at all, I believe that one should keep their handphone with them constantly at all times and answer calls. After all, what's the point of a handphone if you don't use it? Also, when someone calls you nonstop for so many times even after you've rejected them means that they have a very important matter that must be dealt with as soon as possible. I wouldn't interfere and keep calling back after you've rejected so many times if it weren't for something that required immediate attention.

But overall it was I who came back a winner and a loser. I got my iPod touch back, no doubt; but I have also lost the respect of others by flaming up so easily and showing extremely weak leadership skills. I promise that I will control the temper that I inherited from my father. (:

Again, I'd like to thank Mr Seah who answered my call and gave me suggestions as to what I should do whilst going around being the busy man that he is, Mr Chua for approving my leave from the boarding complex, Siva for trying to help by calling up others to check for information, Kah Wah for cooling me down which ultimately helped me think rationally, the security guards who have advised me on my next course of action and bringing me to the hall, Elizer who kindly brought me down and accompanied me, and those who have helped me throughout the ordeal.

well well. i got my hands on a blogging software for the iphone os and now i'm sending data over during recess! XD

school's been bad for me these days. to think i only scored 11/30 for my english test! wtf. dampened my mood for the whole freaking day. good thing there was maths to always cheer me up.

i'm too lazy to recode another site just for the iphone os. as such i'll modify the php code to redirect people to the actual blog. maybe i'll try and do it when i'm actually free. D:

yeahhh. nothing to say. still trying to think of ways to reduce the time i need to modify the coding. and the links! argggghh. maybe it'll just be everyone's blogs. XD

updating next time! :o