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Well not really. Not much of freedom granted. But still, all my tests are over! (: Just homework and projects left, but then again let's not spoil the mood shall we? :p I saw Eng Yee update and I'm like, okay, update too. Since I got nothing else better to do. XD

I've already received a few papers back. Maths, even though I was very fricking confident in it, was only 19/30. Bah. Miserable. But then Physics cheered me up. 27/30. Fuuuuh. How come so high one? Physics so high freaking abnormal! :p So now that I'm done, there're plenty of projects to complete. Physics research, SS documentary, Maths performance task, Geography Greenwave project, Chinese project, English book club, English metacognitive reflection, Philosophy. I don't think I missed out anything. XD

Oh yeah, today's Wen Jie's birthday! Happy birthday if you're reading this! I doubt you are, but hey, at least I SMSed you. XD Happy belated birthday to Jimmy, one of the craziest and funniest seniors I have in RI. And many more birthdays to come for this year. There's still half a year left. In a bit more than one month's time, it'll be Eng Yee's, Kar Heng's and my birthday. Then followed up by.... sigh, you know what? I'm gonna just leave all of this to Facebook to inform me. XD

I'm guessing some of you must be mighty sad about whatever you're bad at. Be it academics, or your life in general. Please stop being so depressed and tell yourself how you completely suck so much. It's annoying. I have this very same person sitting beside me in class throwing tantrums just because he screwed up some test. Understand that you're not alone. There are others who have done worse than you, so stop whining like a baby. Take the time to reflect on what you did wrong, and maybe just stay emo for 15 minutes, and then go on with life. It's better to count our blessings and look at the cup half-filled with water instead of looking at it half-empty.

ANYWAAAAAY. JUNE HOLIDAYS COMING UP! Can't wait to go home. Really. I'll be back in Malaysia on June 11th! Can't wait to catch up with friends and be with my family. I really don't know why, but I have this very strong attachment to my family, stronger above all other bonds. Everything manages to revolve around the whole of my family, be it something happy or something sad. Dearest dad, mom, sis, uncles, aunties, cousins. You name it. They're the shelter that protects me from harm, the ones that take the pain out of my heart, the ones that believe in me even though all hope is lost for me. Words cannot express my gratitude. The only thing I can give in return is my love, and my weak ability to assist in any way I can. (:

Same (although in a smaller scale) goes with my friends and teachers, be it in Singapore or Malaysia. They've been my pillars of support since the beginning, and I'm grateful for that. Eng Yee, Angelyn, Pui Mun, Cheng Yee, Chi Hao, Zheng Hung, my juniors, Mr Vincent Quek, Mr Tan Chiew Sern, Mr Daniel Chua, Mrs Eunice Tay, Mrs Priscilla Lim, Mr Low June Meng, Mrs Neoh Terh Ling, Hieu, Nhan, Tejas, Thyagesh, others that I've forgotten to mention, others that I don't know but have helped me in some way, that uncle by the roadside, the auntie who serves food at the dining hall... Everyone seems to be silently cheering me on in life, telling me no matter what I do, I can't give up. Thanks everyone.

Who cares what religion you are in. No matter who you are, which walk of life you are from, where you originate, everyone needs to be grateful to those who have helped him. A small deed can sometimes be a huge push in life, whether it's a miniscule thing or a gigantic matter. So give yourselves a minute of silence, and thank everyone who has helped you to have gotten this far. Including the enemy who acts like a total bastard. Including the monster who you meet at work or school. Including those you hate who have hurt your feelings. For without them, life would be monotonous, merely giving you all the whites while the blacks are nowhere to be found.

I hope that you'll understand where I come from, and I apologise if this seems like a very long post. (: Stay happy always!

No, no, no. It's not Social Studies that has killed off my entire day's mood. 22th May has barely an hour to go. Chinese Drama was completely boring as there were singers who couldn't sing, performers who couldn't perform and scriptwriters who couldn't write scripts. The only act I found slightly entertaining was the one put up by RI Chinese Drama itself. So I spent $10 on a ticket that I found boring if not useless. As if I didn't have enough to deal with, here comes some guy who casually blocks the door to get into Hullett Block, building happiness upon others' misery, which is, sad to say, a completely twisted and fucked up mind.

This is more or less likely the first time I have used the f-word in my blog post, and I always try to refrain my emotions from imploding inside me. But as do everyone else, I have my limits. There's a very fine line between being sarcastic and being very bloody annoying. It's not like my 19/30 CCT for Maths is depressing enough. It's not like I don't have school for the next week because it's not even the fricking holidays yet. It's not like I _chose_ to be late because the show ended late.

I understand that I am in the wrong for not getting a blue form signed just in case, but there were many circumstances which led me to believe I didn't need it in the first place. Last year's same performance ended at 9:30p.m and When I knew I was gonna be late, I immediately contacted 2 of my boarding masters and 2 of my tutors. They all know where I have been and know what I'm up to. Yet did any of this register in he-who-must-not-be-named? No, he didn't even bother listening to what I have to say, and commented on how I as boarding chairman should "enforce the rules, not break it".

The purpose of a blue form is to inform boarding masters where and when will you be gone. A phone call, in case of an emergency such as this, would suffice to tell boarding staff/tutors that I am accounted for. Someone thinks otherwise. Whatever the hell you have, a blue form is needed. No other explanations, no other alternatives, no other excuses.

Then the world would be a robotic place. People would be completely emotionless. Who creates the rules? Does he have emotions? Have you not forgotten the fact that he who creates rules, including himself, has emotions and can compromise? Why not put a robot in charge then, if the book is to be followed that closely? Is there even a purpose of trying to reason with him anymore? He, who went exercising both his body and his authority nearly an hour ago?

I apologise if I sound very rude, but I have my own reasons and I believe it's completely legitimate. In fact, when I did a reflection of myself 5 minutes before I started writing/typing this, all I could think of was how I could abuse him verbally. Unhealthy thought, I know. The 27/30 I got for my Physics mean nothing to me now, completely overshadowed by thoughts of hatred and despair which should not have been there if someone had the heart to understand.

Please understand that I am not going to harbour this in mind for the next 50 years, plotting my revenge. The reason why I even wrote this here is to let loose my tantrum and pressure that has been mounting on me since God knows when. Tomorrow, unless asked, and only at my sole discretion, I will not entertain any questions regarding this event, as the lesson is learnt, more or less, even though the moral of the story is not politically correct, in a sense.

Thank heavens I'm leaving boarding in 2.5 weeks. It's not like I don't have enough hell to deal with; it's time I relax, reflect, and maybe, just maybe, I'll forgive him. But now, I'll act as if nothing has happened, and keep a blade beneath the smile. What he has done I will never forget, because it was simply too retarded to ignore. "Let bygones be bygones"? Please.

I guess it's a rarity to see me blog. In fact I don't know why but I guess Twitter's easier and lets me remember things better. Now all I need is a fricking iPhone so that I won't be bound by the fact that WiFi is required for updates on my iPod touch. Damnit. ): It's seriously a quick way to let people know what you're doing and all that, instead of ranting all over the place. Anyone up for trying? (: If you're reading this, you're likely to read my tweets as well. I've changed by "links" button to make it change to Twitter, but I haven't updated the text below (too lazy. XD) And I've added a column beside my blog itself. Otherwise, you can still click here to get my Twitter updates. :D

Higher Mother Tongue test was last Friday. (For people in Malaysia, think of it as Chinese and leave it at that. XD) The hall was seriously freaking cold! Which made me all the more nervous while taking the test. I can't believe I wrote so short for both of my essays. Short and sweet is one thing, but what if I actually forgot to include more points? I mean, you know how it's like to take an exam in a hall. Intimidating. Sigh.

Anyway, I've been trying to look for new and useless ideas. One includes purchasing the domain wangfami.ly for personal usage. Y'know, like giving out emails and all that to family members so that it's easier to remember and stuff. I'm still pondering as it costs a hefty USD$50 for a single address. That's biting off more than I can chew. Parents will be saying it's too freaking expensive and pointless and all that, but I wanna do it in the name of sentimentality. XD What do you think? Let me know in my comments box or via Twitter please.

8th week of school! Which means I have 3.5 weeks to go! The school actually tried giving a subsidy of $100 in lieu of possible influenza A (H1N1) outbreaks in Singapore. Can't help but scoff at it you see, cause air tickets cause way more than that. Ain't affecting Malaysians that much, but please, I'd rather get home quarantined a week and skip school (even though I don't want to, SERIOUSLY).

I've also started to lose interest in Facebook. The only reason why I'm still checking is because I can get Mr Lam's status immediately while still in school. That's really the only reason. No other. Facebook starts to bore me too, because there's too much crap about "how well you know *insertnamehere*" quizzes and whatnot, which in my opinion ain't important. You don't know someone until you speak to him/her. So let's forget bout that.

I shall start cleaning my room now. Remember to comment via the chatbox, and also hook me up on Twitter. :D

Well yeah, as you can tell, I'm really, REALLY fed up of designing posters. The amount of time and the number of times you have to click, drag, drop, modify just to get a decent-looking one, not to mention having the idea before you actually start doing anything, and including the time spent on looking for photos, or taking one... It's seriously sickening.

No choice. This is Greenwave we're talking about. 15 posters by next term and I'm only at like my 4th? Bah. The ideas just don't come to me, and even if they do, it somehow turns out to be one of those posters that are fscking difficult to design but looks simple on the outside. I'm gonna post one or two next time when I finish. Like the nicest looking ones. :p That's still far away. I can't wait for Greenwave to be over. I mean, there're still so many things to complete. SS Documentary's a killer too. And I've been involuntarily made leader. DAMNIT! D:

Well Learning Journey Day was today. It's like a school day where we go out to some place and learn about something related to Singapore. Like for my class and I, we went to the Royal Singapore Air Force Museum. Nice place, though gets very boring soon enough. But at least we saw some real planes and all, even though many parts of it were taken out. If only we could aim a missile at Putrajaya. Sigh. XD

Friday's the Mother Tongue CCT, but this time it'll resemble the O-level exams. No idea why, but even though I'm not really prepared for it, I'm not in the least bit worried about it. I have to start psyching myself up to get ready for my O's and catch up on those lessons that I barely listened to during the first term busy schedules. Somehow SYF has reaffirmed my belief that you are not allowed to be sick. I mean seriously. Less than 100 hours of lessons I have missed and yet it takes that amount of time to catch up. Insane or what? :p

By the way, if you're reading this, do you mind actually posting something on the chatbox? It's been getting awfully quiet and I can't track who's been on my blog/site and stuff. Which pisses me off a bit. Cause I don't know whether if I'm talking to the wind or something. Simple comments would do, and even irrelevant ones if you'd really prefer. At least make yourself known and let me take comfort in knowing that I'm not whining all alone. XD

Oh yeah, the hottest thing now is swine flu. Or influenza A (H1N1) if you prefer it like I do, because I couldn't take a jab from Hieu saying I'm the carrier of the flu. Bah. Which reminds me, I gotta go cut down on weight. Maybe I'll start hitting the gym or something at least once every week. I acknowledge that I haven't been getting enough exercise for my own good, partly due to the insane amount of workload which has already caused much mental stress on me. Let's hope you won't see me the next time demented. Lol

Yeah, that's all. Now I gotta ask my parents to pass those books to Ee Lyn and Eng Yee. ASEAN Scholarship! :O!